So today, my whole day basically I spoke with one of my friends. It was rough and I just don't know how I feel right now. He was feeling suicidal, like really suicidal and I don't know how far he was ready to go. After several hours speaking with him, he seems more calm. At least for the moment he is calm. He kept crying and all. He told me so much and what really sucks is the fact I cannot even be physically there for him atm. I'm just really hoping he will recover from all this. I'm really worried about him.